bored

I've literally done nothing today. I had two classes, but didn't go to either of them. One was cancelled and the other one I just didn't go to because I didn't have my Latin translations done due to waking up late. I'm always prepared for that class with my work done, but once last week I didn't quite get all of my translation finished and of course the professor had to call me at the end to read my work out loud. I just had to tell her that "I didn't get that far" like many people in that classhave said in the past, but she acted all disappointed with me when I said that. I don't really think she likes me, but I'm pretty sure I have one of the highest if not the highest grade in that class. Whatevs. I've been getting really great grades in my classes so far (knock on wood). It seems school is the only thing I can do right these days. Actually, I don't even feel stressed by school. It's my interpersonal relationships with people that get me stressed. Funny thing is, this didn't happen until I moved to mpls. Coincidence? I've been feeling so uncreative for a long time and it really bothers me. I always had hobbies in high school: clarinet (big time), cross country, and clubs. I've been realizing recently how big a chunk of my life has been spent playing music, auditioning, practicing, performing solos, performing in ensembles, taking lessons, playing in bands and orchestras, etc. I miss it, and maybe even the nerves and stress that went along with it. I really want to be in a very melancholic, brutal, unapologetically crushing, blackened doom metal band but it seems everyone's busy. I can do very sweet lowvocals. Very low. Yes. (Lyrics would be written in Latin most likely.) And Iwould wantreal musicians in the band, not people that can only half ass play their instruments, ya know? Having fun and doing things well for me go hand in hand. If I do something I'm going to do it right. That's where part of the fun comes in for me--in feeling accomplished. I've asked Aaron. He said he couldn't do itb/c his plate's full and he's busy with Hex. I've asked Skell but he said doom metal's really not his cup of tea. I've also asked Brian but he's really busy with Living Hell and another music project he's gotgoing on and planning for tour, and tour when it comes. I've still got a few other people in mind though that I haven't gotten around to asking. There's really no time crunch or anything. I'm basically looking for people who aren't in any bandsat the moment or are only in one or two. Joe Axler said he'd gladly do drums, but that would limit this non-existent band to being a studio project since he lives in seattle, unless we just found somebody to play for us live. But hell, at this point, I don't even care ifthat's all it would be. I just need my creative juices to get flowing again.